I have anxiety disorder and see a psychologist every other week.?

Sometimes I have really dark thoughts about commiting suicide but I would never do it. The thoughts come when I am alone and have time to think. Do normal people think about death on an everyday basis? Also sometimes my anxiety gets so bad that I dig my nails or a key into my arm and it leaves a cut-but I never bleed. Do you think that it a form of self-injury because ive only done it 4 times? I havent told my psychologist about this because I feel like she'll think I'm crazy because I've been seeing her for almost a year and I'm embarrassed. Some days are great and I have no problems, I feel happy but then some days I just wake up with such anxiety.

Yes hun I agree, You need to be honest and up front with your psychologist, she is there to help you. If your having these thoughts you should tell her the truth, then go from there. If your unable to talk to her then you need to see someone you can. I've been seeing my therapist for 16 years and sometimes I feel a little embarassed to tell him things. But I make myself and I always feel better, because he helps give me ideas and things to try to get better. So it might just be you have gotten confortable with your psychologist and might just feel embarassed about bringing this up. Even the suicidal thoughts you need to tell her so she can access, if you are ok. However do bring it up especially now that you find yourself wanted to feel pain to feel better. If you are on meds maybe they need to be increased. She would know. I hope I helped! Take care! Hugs! Von

Why have a psychologist if you're not going to be honest with her? Think about it. You go there for help and support yet you have no trust in your doctor? Be honest so she can point you in the right direction and help
Relax Ur self. Just be around people more since it starts when Ur alone. i been like that to. U have to try not to think about it. Just because u have those thoughts not saying Ur going to do it. It seems like u know how to control Ur self. When u have anxiety, just deep breath. Close Ur eyes. Say to Ur self this tool will past. Breathe in slowly and let it out slowly. Go deep ion side Ur mind go to a place u been before that u had love. Go there in your mind and see ur self doing something real fun. And stop hurting your self when Ur afraid. Your afraid of something. You have to find what it is, it is going to take some time when you are searching. In the mean time to yoUr deep breathing. Close your eyes breathe real slowly in and out say to ur self i will get through this . It will take some time it m,ay seem like its not working, but relax thats all to it.hope this help u...
sometimes people may think about death but if you think it often it may be problematic. 陌 think you must talk everything with your psychologist to calm down, she and you may discover the causes of these feelings and behaviors together.
You need to tell your psychologist EVERYTHING! They cannot do their job unless you do so. Your health depends on it. Don't let yourself down, you deserve the best treatment possible in order to get better. It is not possible if you're only telling half truths.
Most normal people do not think about death on a daily basis. Yes I do think the nails and the key digging is self-injury, you are trying to hurt yourself, if you do not stop, you will eventually hurt yourself seriously. Please let your psychologist or physician know what is really happening. Be safe and good luck.
If you have an anxiety disorder, no amount of talking to a psychologist is going to help longterm. You might be helped a little while you are there. Anxiety (other than situational) is caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain and you probably need medication.

You might want to try an antidepressant, like Zoloft, which is very safe. You will probably have some nausea and sleeplessness at first. You will notice no difference in your anxiety for 2 weeks. After 2 weeks, you should feel much better without the mind-racing that usually goes along with an anxiety disorder. Any doctor can write a prescription for Zoloft. I am speaking from experience.
I know what you mean about your symptoms -- they're not the SEVERE, GET YOU TO THE HOSPITAL type... they're a little sneakier, arent' they?

I never wanted to tell my therapist about some of my stuff because i wanted her to like me-- for me to be her favorite.

My take it that everyone has "crazy feeling" days -- but not to the extend that you may have them... which means that you need to make a decision to be honest with your counselor about the cutting and self injury. It's not the TIMES you do it. it's that you feel so bad about yourself, you're looking for a way to get rid of the rage your feelinng and to get some control everyweek.

Ican definitely tell you you are not crazy or wierd. When you look at this from the other side, you are a very strong and brave person with a real will to live and to make life better for other people whenever you can-- beause you've got that empathy within you.

Do i think about committing suicide? to be honest, yes. somedays, I'll wake up and say,"Hmm, will this be it?" But, I'm not "planning" it-- it's more a sense of hopelessness.

Find the true courage in yourself. take this with you if it helps. No one want's to disappoint their doctors- but the docs have seen everything and are there to give you comfort and strategies and release.

And... to your last point, somedays I wake up raring to go, too-- never knowing whtn the anxiety will return.

It is a painful journey -- but an enriching one as well. Keep a journal. And if you want to email, please
do.

Good luck.... you will do this !!