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What do you expirence while going through mood swings??? (bipolar disorder)? |
I need this for a school thing please tell me how you feel what expirences you have medications yoy take appreciate any answerz Either I get very uforic. Also anger rage and depressed. I can rant some of the nastiest sarcasm a sailor would blush. Real bad episodes breaking stuff is a greta release. I take Zoloft to get going and some other stuff to stay down. I suffer with bipolar, One minute I can be normal the minute I can be on a low. It can make you sad, angry and sometimes out of control. I have self harmed myself , I have thought of suicide and you think you are nothing. There is a lot more. If you would like to know more email me if you want to know anything else. Kim I am bi-polar.... I have taken all kinds of medication. Lithium, Wellbutrin, Valproic acid xanax, and other but none worth mentioning. I have some major mood swings, I mostly experience anger... ANGER!! I have done some crazy things during this time. I can rember what I have done but it is more like a move and your thoughts are in control of you. Crazyness!! Things that I the me the people know would never do. I would hurt myself pound my head into walls, punch things, THROW things...anything in sight!! I have beat my frig in the garage with a baseball bat. I have been off meds. for the last year and havent really experienced any major episoides....major in being distroying things. I do just go off but with a reason I really Go OFF the deep end sometimes. Now, I look at it as life, not the disorder... I get fed up off all the bull shi* and go off. It dose take a lot but there is a lot to give back if you know a bi-polar person you know what I am taking about. So I feel like I am better off the medication. The people that are close to me think that I am better off of them. This dose not mean that you should not take them, you should try and talk to your doctor about, my doctor know that I did not like the way that the medication made me feel. ( nothing could bother me, I really did not care about much) I hope that this info helped you.... rember ever person has different body chemicals and medication will have different effects on everyone. Always talk to your doctor about the way the medication is making you feel and go through the time you need with each one. Good luck with your project... For me, it is like I am all powerful, at one with the world, the ideas are pouring from me, my life is blossoming. Everything I touch turns to gold. I am incredibly creative and intelligent, I think so quickly. I have a lot of fun around others and make a lot of jokes. I don't get these much anymore-I think most people get fewer hypomanic episodes as they get older. These hypomanic episodes probably last a month or two. Usually, the work I do is good during these episodes, but there is also often some self-important crap that I thought was good at the time. Then I am crushingly defeated. The anguish is intolerable. I am in agony, like everybody I loved betrayed me deeply and I deserved it. I can't get out of bed. Or, I can't even decide between chicken noodle soup or a sandwich, so I go back to bed and eat nothing. Nobody cares. Everyone hates me (despite ample evidence to the contrary). I can't think. Can't pay attention. Sometimes, I can be both at the same time, then I am divinely evil, and everyone hates me, but I deserve it and should suffer for my sins (not that I've done anything particularly wrong). The world would be better off if I am dead, bigtime. The delusion going on here is that my rottenness extends far beyond my real influences in life. It's grandiose, but in a bad way. Also, in this mood (which is called dysphoric mania, mixed moods, whatever) I am quite hyper and agitated about these things. It is quite a torture. worse than the straight depression, because I sleep through most of my regular depression and mostly don't care. This mixed moods is my usual state of being, and it is hell on earth. I actually resent the people in my life insisting that they want me to live. In mixed moods, it can appear that my emotions are changing rapidly, but they are not-I am despairing, but I keep a lid on it most of the time so far as my behavior goes. I still get the obsessional behavior that I get with hypomania. I really hate it when someone interrupts me when I am doing "My Work." Whatever that is. definitely needs the capital letters, because it is so important to me. It could be any project at all, and switch from hour to hour. When I'm at my most emotional, which is usually caused by frustration, I can't think. Such as doing income tax forms, I have a math degree, it is trivial, but I just cannot follow the directions. Can't even follow a recipe for cookies. Then I cry and cry and want to blow my brains out because I am so stupid and worthless and a parasite on society because I am disabled and my husband and everyone else hates me and the world would be so much better off if I were dead because then I wouldn't be parisitizing all you nice people who work hard for a living to support me, I am a tick. You get the idea. It all streams in a flow like that, and oh, how it hurts. And I really believe this stuff (even now). Nobody can tell from my behavior, tho. As soon as my mood improves, all these thought go away. The way I don't kill myself is I remind myself over and over that I'm not thinking quite right. I take lamictal and prozac. I also use a light box (usually used for seasonal affective disorder) and go for counseling. I go to a social club for people with mental illnesses. I have a social worker and live on disability. Go to your local library resource section and get the PDR. It will list all the signs and symptomology of Bipolar Mood disorder from beginning to end. Be aware though that the discription is all inclusive and if you take it literally every one in the world would have the illness. It is meant to list symptoms to use as a measurement of depth of illness, not a check list to go down. Medical background/ psychology degree when I go through mood swings or do not take my medication I am very angry. Everyone makes me mad, noone can do any thing right. I treat my boyfriend very badly and the worst part is I know Im having an episode and that this isnt me and im going to feel very sorry later but I cant control my anger. I take Geodon 40mg it is a mood stabilizer and effexor 37.5mg for depression I am pretty balanced right now if you need more info email me |
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