I find it very hard to cope with my mom dying of colon and liver cancer.?

Just last Tuesday i was told there was nothing more they can do for my mommy. She is 54 years old and slowly dying everyday of colon and liver cancer. I am 34 years old she has lived with me for 10 years now. She helped me with everything from maintenance of our house to helping me raise my 4 boys.She loved to have a good time and enjoyed gardening. All i can think about is those times when she smiled so happily or us playing volleyball in our backyard. I've been up for days now crying and in pain just thinking about how much I miss her already. She is just lying in a bed mostly in pain. I wish i can take her pain I hate the thought of her being in so much pain. There was no time frame given ,but i know it won't be long. I prayed that god take the pain away , but to please leave her here with me. everyone is telling me to stop mourning her she's not dead, but no one seems to understand what i am experiencing. so i look and act strong around everyone then breakdown at bedtime.

Tell the doctor you want hospice care for your mom. They will help control your mom's pain and help you know what to do with all that is going on. They will also provide emotional support to you and your family. It makes a very big difference. I highly recommend it.

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The hardest thing i EVER did in my life was care for my dying mother. Give her this gift with grace and strength. It's alright if you cry with her. She probably has things she needs to tell you, but she may be playing the 'be strong for daughter' game while you play the 'be strong for mom' game. Approach each day as a gift, and understand that if you live long enough, you will have to bury someone you love. Pray for God to give you strength for whatever lies ahead, and tell well-meaning friends to grieve their own way and let you do the same.

I'm so sorry for what your going through.my mother passed from the same thing.everyone mourns differently .when this is over there is gonna be a relief for you.i know its on your mind 24/7and very overwhelming.just keep remembering those goodtimes.. thats what will keep her alive after shes has passed. in my mind i put mom away a week before she died . but thats the way i handled it.ill pray for you and mom