Depression or madness?

Sometimes I lose control...I break things, even things I like, and regret it afterwards, but when that mood comes I can鈥檛 do anything to stop it. I鈥檓 scared I might do something drastic. I cut when I get sad usually, but my mum took the shards of glass I was using and threw them away. Last time I lost control, I started doing things without even thinking. At one point I started banging my head on the wall till it hurt too much, and I also started screaming and breaking things.

My sister thinks I鈥檓 going mad, so does my mum, which is why she鈥檚 sending me to a psychologist every fortnight. He said I鈥檓 going through depression and that apparently it鈥檚 been there for a long time. He also said that I鈥檓 very sensitive...I get sad when I notice someone looking at my wrists, and when my sister tells me she thinks I鈥檓 going mad.

So, what I want to know is, am I going mad? Or is it normal for depression to be like this? And should I take any pills?

I suffered from depression for a very long time. I was just the same as you. I'd say do as your psychologist suggests. If you don't feel yourself getting better, talk to him about the possibility of temporarily taking pills to help cope with the anger. However, what helped me most was exercising. It is my highest recommendation. It releases the chemicals that the pills mimick. It'll make you feel much better, you can take out your anger in a healthy way, and you'll feel better about yourself. Try kickboxing. Get a punching bag, and start running. The burn after running for long enough is way better, way deeper than cutting. Put some hard, angry songs on your music player and run to it. Honestly, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for exercise. (And, yeah, I admit, I just hated it at first... but it felt good to torture myself that way... a lot more satisfying than cutting)

You could easily have bi-polar depression which may be causing you to act out in such ways, I dont believe youre going mad though. You sound sane enough to me ^.^
You should really talk to a psychologist about putting you on medication, It will deff help and make you feel more at ease. I've been taking my medication for about 4 months now and it works great

You need to take some medication. But just pill but maybe couselling.

But i think you have to help yourself to control too. I think during my teenage time, i experince a short period of this situation. But i got over it. If i can do it, so can you.

I dont know that is despression or madness.

Make sure dont let the feeling control you, you take control of it.

You need to talk to someone ( a counselor or phychiatrist) to figure out what is making so angry. Anger is usually a cover for sadness so you need someone to help you work it out and figure out what is going on. You can get help and get better.

No, you are not going mad. I have the same problem.Your symptoms display that of Borderline Personality Disorder. And people usually need three things: 1. Hospitalization 2. Therapy 3. Pills
I hope you are able to get one of these things soon so you can get better.
Good luck!

HUN you are not crazy!! you make have an imbalance of chemicals in your brain! you and your mom should make a doctors appointment. there are many things you could have depression ... bipolar..anything is possible!! This does not mean tat it is entirely your fault!! best of luck!!!

You need anger management.

its just stress you'll get over it soon

You should talk to the psychologist first hand about your issues and also ask him/her if you should try medication for a while. What I was thinking when I read your question is that you put it like these temper tantrums happen right out of the blue, and I don't think they do. I think you're p*ssed off at somebody close to you, but you choose to take it out on yourself. At the same time, you manage to scare your family and get a lot of attention.

You say your sister and mum thinks you're going mad. The psychologist says you're depressed. What do YOU think? ARE you mad? Are you feeling depressed? Are you satisfied with yourself, your life and your achievements or are there things you want to change? Nobody can "fix" this problem for you, you have to participate actively in solving it.

Another thing: you don't lose control when you get angry. If you had, you would have slashed your wrists and bled to death a long time ago, or gone on banging your head against the wall. So, you do have control at some level and there are lots of things you can do to stop yourself from being destructive. Unless these outbursts appear suddenly, like a flash of lightning, you can learn to recognize the signs telling you you are headed for a new tantrum. So, when you notice, do something. Jog, take a long walk, work out, write, paint, whatever floats your boat and diverts your energy. Don't just let it happen - fight back.

That is, if you WANT the tantrums to stop. Be honest with yourself there. If you "win" something from smashing stuff and cutting yourself, you will have to figure out other ways to get what you need.

You are very depressed. Please get help. It has gone on for to long now. Why are you so unhappy? Has something happend in your life that you have not told someone? Usually something as happened to cause this. Someone has hurt you are done something to you. Mom is doing the right thing for you to get help. Be honest with the Doc so he or she can help you. When you hurt yourself its because you feel so bad. You want the enter pain to go away. Down deep I think you know whats causing you to be this unhappy. You have to be willing to talk to someone about it. Keeping it all to yourself is to much for you to handle. You are not the only person thats has and is dealing with this. You can get help. Be honest with someone you trust. Its the only way you will get better. You are not crazy. You just have too much burden on you. You can be happy it you want. Best of luck to you.

you aren't going mad, you recognize that you do have some sort of issue. depression can be this way, try to think of what is causing you to get angry. you should make a list of all the things that make you angry or feel bad so that you can get rid of it. it might help to start a blog or an online journal and write out your thoughts and feelings in it every so often...it can really help. i don't think pills are the way to go, they can really imbalance the chemicals in your brain and REALLY mess things up for you permanently. this is just a stage in life that some people go threw most times is not something that will stick around. as for the list of things that make you upset, also make a list of things that are worth living for. you can also try to get some hobbies that really interest you...like sports, music, web design...etc!

YES YOU SHOULD.

I think what you might be experiencing is Borderline Personality Disorder.
I say that because depression is usually accompanied by lack of wanting to do things, not angry bursts of destructive behavior.

Therapy is a good step but sometimes it takes more to help you control your actions. If you really want help, make an appointment with your regular doctor and tell him/her you think you have a personality disorder. The doctor will discuss your actions and feelings with you or have you fill out a screening test (very simple).

Don't be afraid, and good luck. You are NOT going mad.

1st of all, she shouldn't say that you're "going mad" You're clearly going through a difficult time and it's probably a little of both depression and anger that's making you act this way. You should only take pills if you want to, because if you feel that they are necesary then take them, but if no, sometimes it's better to handle things the old fashion way. (they didn't always have pills) And people take depression in all sorts of ways.. Some people sit around crying their life away, while others do what you described and go around acting a little crazy. I'm sure you'll get better eventually so don't get too worried. Good Luck =]