Depression/OCD?; girls, only please.?

for the past two weeks, i have been suffering from HOCD, which is a branch of ocd. i've been confused about my sexuality and have had many sleepless nights.
i know deep down that i am not attracted to girls as in i want to kiss them, or have sex with them. i've always liked guys and i've been attracted to men.
for the past two weeks though, i've been feeling so funky and gross, i don't really care about guys. i have a boyfriend who i don't really like, but don't want to hurt his feelings and break up with him. i'm sick of dating and all the hurt and confusion, and i would prefer not to date for awhile.
i think i was in "in love" with my last boyfriend, but after awhile i just got bored of him and scared because he said he wanted to "spend the rest of his life with me". i'm 15, and he's 17.
what is wrong with me? why do i get bored making out with my current boyfriend? every other girl seems to really enjoy it. i just sort of like the chase though, not really the long term. help!!!

First of all, you're 15. Your hormones are changing, sometimes daily. You were wise beyond your years to avoid a permanent relationship at your age and if you really need a break from your current boyfriend you should be fair to him and let him know! It will only hurt more, later.
I doubt that there is anything "wrong" with you that another year or two won't cure. It takes time, and time is something most 15 yr olds don't like to take.
In this gimme', now, do it now, gotta' have it, now . . . now . . . now . . . generation everyone wants instant everything. Tell you a secret . . . we were just as impatient in my teen years, 40 yrs ago. Amazing, huh?
It sounds like you are making some wiser-than-most decisions and maybe you simply need to cut yourself some slack. Give yourself some time to adjust to new feelings, new hormones, new wisdom. Go easy on you! Sometimes we are harder on ourselves than anyone else.
I think the best thing you could do right now is get into a really good youth group where you can be with others that can totally relate to what you are going through, and you can get some good godly advice (not just all the don't you dare do this) and have some good relaxing fun (no pressure).
E-mail me if you need help finding a good group in your area.

Remember . . . you are just who you were meant to be, just where you were meant to be, and you are AOK!
Good luck and I will be praying for you to have peace of mind!

There is nothing wrong with you...it is totally normal to be confused about your sexuality at your age...a lot of girls are still confused in their 20's...it does not mean you are gay or weird or messed up.

As far as your boyfriend goes...maybe you just don't like him that much. If you are more into the chase than dating that is fine...you are young. You are not supposed to meet the man of your dreams at your age. Just be careful.

In my experience, being with a guy you don't really like anymore can be a huge turn off. Break up with him now! I think that's what's causing all of your confusing feelings. Try not dating anyone for a while; quality you time is important, especially as a teenager when you're still figuring out who you are and who you want to be.

U need to break up with yur current boyfriend. Don't be with someone that u don't like. Of course you are confused. Break up with yur boyfriend and go out and have fun.

It's not unusual.

Itis natural to be curious about same sex, particularly if you're not thrilled about your results of experimenting with the opposite sex.

I would say, though, that in your age range, you probably are coming up against a lot of immature boys. And, yes, they can be immature at 17. Or 20. Or 26. And so on.

You may need to limit yourself to just short-term fun relationships - nothing serious - and for goodness sake don't get pregnant - until you meet someone decent, which might require waiting until you get to college.

Don't worry about it too much for now. What's "wrong" with you might not be you, but simply your choice of partners.

dont worry alot of teenagers go through that stage, and trust me your not gay. if you were you would know, lol since youd want to have sex with other girls *gross i knwo right!haha*

i personally love guys. there just so sexy, but its normal not to enjoy making out with them, its more the excitment girls like, not making out, cause its kinda gross if the guys a bad kisser =] and trust me my ex boyfriend was TERRIBLE. haha =]

but when you find a guy you REALLY like you know, becuase kissing him wont feel gross, and it will feel great! i was going out with a guy and we never kissed, and now a year later i regret it, since everytime his face is near mine, i just want to slam him into a locker =]

so dont worry, he just inst teh right guy and you havent found someone yet, you'll know =]

Your brain is misfiring and causing the thoughts to stay-realize that you are not your thoughts-it is the OCD So if it's been awhile since you have had therapy-maybe you need to go see them, they will help you to deal with this issue. You still like boys and we all go through times that we could care less about them-I know sometimes I'd rather have chocolate-LOL.

Remember-you are not your thoughts-it is OCD, and what I tell my 12 year old-Those who suffer with OCD-have such a fine (small) size filter so all thoughts get caught in the fine mess basket-others-those who do not suffer-see what those thoughts are (just trash) and pretty much just let it go-because they have a mess that filters all the crap out. So just like junk mail in the email system-delete this trash and let it go. Call it for what it is trash-and remember you are not the trash. Also, learn to label it as spam (LOL)