Does anyone have advice on my depression

befor i tell you what happend i want you to know i hate preps cuz if i didn't then my life would ALMOST be less dreadful

it all started in kindergarden when i first relized that my stepdad was abuseing my mom and basecly me, my brother, his son, and his daughter. But my mom was to scared to devorce him and after 1st grade he convenced her to move to a place a houraway for 2nd grade and I couldnt see any of my friends cuz we were to far away. The only friend i made there was a gierl named Blare we were constently at each others throuts but we were grate friends. And after 2nd grade my mom finaly had the courge to devorce him but we had to move agin (just so you know i didnt have any of my friends fone # cuz i was only however old you are in 1st grade)and i've never seen her sence. for 3rd grade we moved FAR away agin and the only frend i made there was a fat girl that i hated ( the school only hade preps in it) she thought she was all that when she was the most hated girl in the school and she seid not to hang around her cuz it would ruin her "rep." their was also a girl two years older then me that beat me up. Luckly we moved after that year AGIN back to the same school i was at for 1st gade but over half my friend were gone or didnt remember me (luckly my very best friend remember we have our own them song) but i did get my first BF in 4th grade though he was the sweetest boy you could EVER meet. after 4th grade we moved agin and never saw him agin and thats when the real bad depression kicked in 5&6th grade we moved to a school for to years i actualy made quite a few friends their and some how found one of my friends #'s and asked her to give it to a couple friends only one got it. Now for 7th, 8th (this year), and hopefulyiny in the futer i am hear i have a few friends here and their but not like i had in first grade all the friends i have now just use me had think our friendships a joke except for one true friend i have that i'm starting to question. nw my life is a complet disaster i'm a sotaiol joke at school and to the entire comunety the only friend i have that i KNOW is a true friend not the kindest but that is just how she is and lives in a deferent town, i've known her sence we were in dipers basecly and she is moveind like two hours away the friend i could tern to and could see almost anytime is moving away and will berly ever be able to see i'm thinking of suicid,i cut my self ( i seems to make me feel beter for a little bit)my life is a desaster i feel like i could brake down any mimute. Now i'm questioning life, im wonderin why we live what's the point of life cuz your going to eventualy die and your memmory WILL EVENTUALY fade away. Yes i am a christian (kinda) but i dont really get it and NO my pearents dont know about ANY of this and i'm NOT telling them so if your advice is to talk to them dont bother answering
my life sucks so hard right now (you know if we never moved from were i lived in 1st grade my life would be so happy right now

i need advice soon or im afraid i might do something bad to my self

another part of my depression is that my life is so boring it is LITTARALY unberable

well very mobile life, does kinda suck. well im guessing your no fool,so trying to find other friends and not letting yourself be used has occured to you. my other advice is to (sorry its got to be said) tell your parents. other idea would be to talk to your friend or any other true friends you make, talking to the school counsellor or getting your parents to take you to the doctor these people can help you with drugs or therapy. hmmm well apart from that being a joke at school, well if thats bullying and stuff i can help you out with that, i was a bully victim for 9 years. as for cutting well its a bad idea but i understand why you do it, relives the pain and allows you to feel something. boring life been there, just gotta find something to do, yes being depressed makes that hard if not immposible, an idea is to listen to music or exercise, something thats engaging but doesnt require attention, keeps ur mind occupied. well a reason to live, well meh life sucks but better than being dead at least life can keep u amused, i laugh at everyone it helps. anyway thats the best i can do, if u want to talk feel free to email me via my profile im always happy to talk (my life is boring to). good luck

I was abused and moved around alot as a kid and teen so I know exactly how you feel when you live somewhere and nobody likes you or understands you, it is depressing but honestly it is a part of life and trust me it will pass, if you keep dwelling on how things suck so much then it will get you nowhere. If you dont want to talk to your parents then maybe you should talk to your one freind over the phone or you can talk with a counsler at your school. Did you ever think of playing any kind of sports or anything, thats a for sure easy way to make freinds? Or maybe finding freinds that are not in your school? But to tell you the truth you dont need freinds to make you happy in life, if people dont like you then thats their problem. When your having bad thoughts you should try to focus on the good things in your life.... even if they are small its still something. Dont hurt yourself because your young and life will only get better... trust me

dont do anything to harm yourself. things will get better ... seriously trust me... if your staying where you are you will make more friends as time goes on or if uneed to you have to talk to someone about it.. you dont have to talk about it to ur mom as u said maybe ur sister or another sybling? if not try to talk about it with someone you really trust... or you can talk about it with me if you want my email is jdevrox@yahoo.com
i have a friend who is almost in your position. trust me i would love to help you. just dont cut yourself anymore or try to commit suicide. "its a bullshhitt way out of life"-gw. let me try to help you!<33 dont do anythingg harmful that could harm u in any way!

We live to appreciate life. Enjoy the sun and the moon and be thankfull your alive. I Know your young but when you get older you will relise this. I think you speak to a school counseller about how you feel. Tso don't worry hun you still got your health so be happy and enjoy look forward to your future your young and healthy.

i kno what you mean... my life (another story) sucks too... sum ppl r jus so damn lucky to live a life of happiness while others like us r cursed which such a fucked up life ... if there was a way to make my life better i would..... all you gotta do is hope that one day when you wake up things will be differnt....... just keep hoping... that's what i do everyday...

well there is a point i was in your very same position.i was depressed about my dad and my girl they both have cancer and my dad is problably going to die.it does matter if you die cause i know if i hadent had been here for my girl she would be alone.the point is your life influences others.i cant name how many poeple ive helped with advice.you see i know you will make it out of this your a strong person.ive tried killing myself twice.then i relized that we all have something to live for.what you do effects many other lives.i mean i cut myself too.it did make me feel better.but every time i see those scars i feel the pain of the razor on my skin and it kills me.life does get better.your in 8th grade you got your whole life ahead of you snd you got friends cause i think you would be an awsome friend and if you need anybody to talk to go to my profile and contact me.ill listen to you.