For all the people suffering with depression and SI [self injury]...

dedicated for everyone else that lives the daily pain i do, the depressed, the cutters, ones that can only keep thinking on ending it all. i'm all those. but remember...suicide is only a permanent fix for a temporary problem, not that that will stop me. i know it seems impossible for anyone to help, that this is your life. and people who just began cutting, or want to, read first.....
when you become depressed.....

your not "emo", your living in a pain that never, ever stops.no matter what...
when you see rain, you wish you could be standing in it so you could show everyone your crying without them seeing....
you make one small snip, and you cannot get out of it.......
then your always running to do it again, and you move to different places because you dont want anyone to see.......
then you feel bad, because of guilt, but mostly because you think it should be bigger, it should bleed more....
so you try to make it. its worse every time......
you act like everything is fine and your constantly having to put on a face.......
becuase how could you ever let anyone know.......
your always crying......
being around people is only pain, you just want to hide.....
you want so badly to show everyone, to scream help....
but you wont so you show it on your body, and watch your red tears stream down..........
people start wondering.....just a little bit......
but you smile and assure everything is perfect...
but it only makes it worse........
its mental pain at first, then it ruins your entire body and its pyshical too...
then the one, one person thats been there for you, the one that knows, you end up killing too because she cant stand the pain your in.but you assure her if she tells she will regret it.you want so badly to excape, but wont let her help......

i write this because i know you like to be able to relate to someone sharing the same pain.....
if you want to add something about you, to add on to this, leave an answer.their appreciated.

You are so very good at expressing how you feel.
I hope in some way writing it down has helped clear out some of the cobwebs in your tired brain.
I think suffering is such a lonely thing. Only you/I know the intensity of pain you/I am going through. Please take care of yourself and continue to let your feelings out. Best Wishes.

That's Exactly How I Felt, Only One Of The Two People That Helped Me Felt So Responsible She Started To Harm Herself For A While.
It Does Get Better Though.
Just Gotta Hold On In There =]
x

this is retarded