Depression and also partener?

i felt like killing my self for some months now and did try in october im under siacaiteist. but my partener is always moaning about work and i told him about it? some times he really gets me down with certain things he does . but dont he dont listen about the work thing what should i do? he depresses me sometimes

These are the typical reasons for a person becoming depressed and turning to suicide:

1. Not getting your way. For example: A non-Christian being prevented by a Christian from getting something they want because that Christian is obeying God. For example say your friend has just become a Christian and you haven't and still hate God (whether you believe you do or not), and you want him to spend his excess money and watch some time-wasting movie with you but he won't because he's decided to spend his excess on spreading the gospel: You will become depressed at either the wrong idea that he hates you or angry that he is hating the things you love. Basically it's anger at God that leads to depression.

2. When a Christian sees others breaking God's laws, especially when they break the more important ones deliberately, and often. Scripture gives us some insight into one ancient Christian's emotional life, whose name was Lot:

"he rescued Lot, a righteous man, who was distressed by the filthy lives of lawless men (for that righteous man, living among them day after day, was tormented in his righteous soul by the lawless deeds he saw and heard)" - 2 Peter 2:7-8

3. Others mistreating / being unloving to us.

4. False thinking such as thinking we can't do much to help anyone else in life or, after God has forgiven you, wrongly thinking that he hates you, and losing faith in his love for you.

5. Worshiping things other than God:

"The sorrows of those will increase who run after other gods." - Psalm 16:4

You may not be worshiping "gods" however, if you are not worshiping God, or worshiping other men, metaphorically or literally, more than and especially, in hatred against him, then you will become more and more filled with sorrow.

If you have not yet asked God to forgive you with sincere sorrow towards him for breaking his laws with the desire to stop breaking them, then according to Scripture you will not live forever with God nor will your mind become perfectly logical, but will remain in a tormented and chaotic state. To solve this problem you must not trust in any opinion over God's facts. For example if he said, "Do not lie" but in your opinion it's good to lie now and then, don't trust your opinion. Yes, it is good to lie in some cases for quick profit, but God will punish you for it, and if you are not forgiven yet, and you end up dying before you are forgiven, you will be punished forever for it.

He who trusts in himself is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom is kept safe. - Proverbs 28:26

You should also not listen to those who are not forgiven for spiritual / moral wisdom:

"He who walks with the wise grows wise, but a companion of fools suffers harm." - Proverbs 13:20

That is common sense advice as well. For example say you want help understanding a hard math problem, are you going to get the advice of a hateful impatient idiot who doesn't understand math?

If a person truly wants to know and understand the God of the Bible in order to please rather than find fault with him, God will allow it and will let you know how to secure your future forever.

In order to get eternal life and an ever-increasingly logical mind you must also humble yourself rather than arrogant and stubborn towards God:

"whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and whoever humbles himself will be exalted." - Matthew 23:12

So, willingly, without hatred, do what God asks you to.

Another problem may be your diet and comfort level. For example if you have high arches, the pain from walking around and not having good arch support may be causing you to be easily irritated. Or your sleep may be hindered by light coming in from under a door, a clock, a humming sound coming from a computer or clock, irritating bed sheets, or an uncomfortable pillow or bed.

Also, if you are not getting enough saturated fat you may have poor health and feel miserable, and so again, will be easily angered. It's a myth that saturated fat is bad for you and all those "skim" products are inferior foods to those with the fat in them (when both are both unspoiled that is.) A quick fix is to start eating hamburgers, whole milk (goat milk is the best known), whole yogurt, coconut milk, steak with the fat on, and salmon.

Finally: "don't worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ho of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:25-34

Read more of what God has to say at http://romans916.com/answers.rtf...

If you feel this way, then it is a problem with your way of thinking, not your partner. Have you talked to your partner about wanting to die? If you have, what did he/she say? If you want to die, then your partner griping about work of all things shouldn't make you feel worse, in my opinion. I have been there, and beaten it. I still slip sometimes, but I go out and get over it. Don't harp on the things you see as wrong, try to do something about them. You have to force yourself to change, if you really do want to. Good luck
See suicidal thoughts, and depression, at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris... on pages 5, and 2. Consider couples therapy; maybe your psychiatrist could see you both at the same time.
are you taking any drugs? ritalin?