Ok so i'm sure i have binge eating disorder?

I'm 18 year old male, 5'8, 140 lbs... Pretty light yeah?
Well afew years ago i was 190 lbs. After sticking to a strick diet i lost all the weight and ive been at my target weight ever since, maybe even a little on the light side, my mum etc keeps on telling me i could do with gaining a little weight but they dont know about binge eating, they wouldnt even understand it..But as soon as the diet stopped i started pigging out a bit, and when i realised i could get away with it on the scales, it would only happen more and more.
I've been the same weight all year but I binge eat most of the time, then make up for it by skipping dinner, eating extremely little the next day, or planning out alot of cardio for the next day, e.g running to and from work. So this keeps my weight the same, but still I really want help to stop binging. I cant seem to find a happy medium where i can just eat good healthy meals in a day. When im not doing a strict low cal diet to make up for a binge, my days food would hav been say, a binge around lunchtime of choclate, crisps, sweets, sandwhiches, cookies, anything, then nothing for the rest of the night to make up for it. I don't do it because of anything emotional, I have a good happy life. I Could go hours and hours without eating, but when i do eat it just makes me more hungry and when i binge i can wolf down around 2000 calories, on anything i can get a hold of. I'll even walk to the shops to buy stuff.. Then after i stop, like 30 mins later, I'll just feel guilty and disguisting, and dont even know why i felt like doing it. I would have never done it while i was dieting but now im at a target weight and stayed at it for afew years i do it. So when i dont eat my mum thinks i dont eat enough, but she doesnt realise im making up for binging on crisps and chocolate earlier that day. I always make sure i dont overeat enough to gain weight, and if i do ill compensate for it, but even though i am slim i really want some help with this, i hate the fact that i cant stop myself, im not uncontrollable when i eat, i know what im doing, and at the time its what i want to do, but afterwards i just think WHY? and am riddin with guilt. I'm posotive i have an eating disorder, I weigh myself every morning and even at night time before bed to make sure i havent gained anything that day. I think about food all day, weather its about binging, or thinking of ways to restrict food. Can some one please give me some serious help. Anyone got the same kinda problem?

I really think im verging on Bulimia. IF i could make myself sick after a binge, i definetely would, ive tried it loads, done it once or twice. I binged just now. I've had 3 bags of chips, 3 chocolate bars, loads of little chocolates from a tin. Now im not going to eat for the rest of the night to make up for it, and when i do start eating tomorrow the same thing will happen again, god. When i was dieting i could go so long with sticking to a healthy diet, sometimes i have a week of very low eating, losing afew pounds that week. then the next week i could binge every day, gaining afew pounds that week. i check the scales twice a day... This is my life.

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You need to speak to a doctor, don't waste your time listening to people on here, this kind of thing can only be tackled with the help of professionals.

Don't put it off, book an appointment today!

You are an emotional eater, wether you like to admit it or not. There is more to emotional eating then you'd think, and being happy is just one small component. You have to figure out WHY you binge. WHat, in that precise moment before you go for it, is causing you to. You are obviously getting a reward from this behaviour or you wouldn't be doing it, regardless of wether or not you're aware of what the reward is.

There are lots of self-help books about this (Overcoming Binge Eating, etc). These arent diet books and are directed at your problem.

I used to have this problem. I completely understand what its like. As soon as you get to know yourself better and why you eat, things will change.