Eating disorder recovery? For current or past sufferers especially?

After three hellish years of anorexia, I finally went into recovery three months ago. I've been able to live a normal, happy life since then, but in the past couple days I've been on the brink of relapse.

I hate my body, I hate the way I look, I hate the 20 lbs. I've gained.

Then again, I'm terrified. I want to be straight with God, and I know I can't do that when I'm hurting myself. After all, isn't anorexia just slow suicide?

Please, be honest with me: Is it even possible to recover, and stay recovered, for the rest of your life? What is the longest that you or someone you know has been in recovery?

hi, im in recovery for bulimia at the moment and i know how hard it is and how hopeless it seems. but my mother is living proof that you can recover. she went through 8 years of anorexia, this was only about 9 years ago. now she is fully recovered. by that i mean she eats well and is a healthy weight. she still weighs herself every morning and is obsessive about her weight and what she eats, but she can manage to live a normal and healthy lifestyle. she's my role model. i think eating disorders stay with you for life, but you can get up to a point where it isnt running your life.

i hate being honest ugh but i have to be because that is the right thing to do ,since the age of 13 i have struggled i am either not eating or if i do i purge i weigh 124 i hate it when before i was 90 pound i have a belly everyone says i look good but i think not ,the longest for me never i got chubby due to meds and i hate it if i dont have control and i give it to god and take it back a second later you can recover but old habits for me are hard to die i am 42 and i feel guilty knowing that god didnt mean for me to abuse what he gave me i have dealt with 40 yrs of hurt in family and i just got straight for bpd bipolar drugs alcohol that i am going good in almost a yr aa na august but this eating has consumed me so if you have fought it keep going dont give up ok