How did your eating disorder start?

just a question as to why did it start...i have one and want to try and make connections try to understand these problems more.... thankyou...i know its a hard one to discuss

I guess it starts when you are already a food addict, undergone yo-yo dieting, binge eating, and overeating. Eating disorders can become chronic, debilitating, and even life-threatening conditions.

I have been thinking a lot about this lately. Most people say it was because someone called them fat, or they needed control, but it wasn't like that for me. I think i may have wanted some control, and felt that i could control what i put into my body and what i didn't. I have also always been very shy with low self-esteem and have always been a perfectionist. Around the summer after 6th grade, i remember that i started to become concerned with what i ate because i didn't want to get fat. To me, being fat meant being a failure. First i cut out cake/cookies/chips and started eating healthier things instead, but i eventually started cutting out entire meals. It's been a long, hard road, but im starting to get better and learning to love myself again.

God Bless and i wish you the best in recovery

I wish I knew.
I was a bit worried about going to secondary school (will I fit in? ) and we`d had a school trip away for 2 weeks, when I compared myself to other girls in the showers. I was actually very underdeveloped in comparison. I did`nt want that to change.
I`d always had "food issues" / been a "fussy eater". During the 7 weeks summer holiday before secondary school, I omitted more food groups from my diet (I was already vegan), and began to purge, aswell as increasing my exercise (I already did 3 ballet classes a week, horse riding every day, and was a member of a local athletics team, where I did long distance running).
It would have been around June when the summer holidays started. In the following September, I was less than half of the lowest "healthy" weight, and in an EDU, being fed nasal gastrically with a diagnosis of anorexia nervosa. I was 11, then and I`m 27, now. It (anorexia nervosa) has nearly killed me so many times, and it`s still there.
I think there were many possible predecessors to me developing Anorexia (perfectionism, serious problems which later developed into me being diagnosed with PTSD, guilt, 2 aunts with Anorexia;one of which died from it....and many more).
I really do hope to recover from it, but know, statistically speaking that the longer you have anorexia, the less likely you are to recover.

Ever since i can remember my dad tells me (probably joking) that if i want to stay fat (ive never really been fat, just a bit overweighted still inside the normal range) i should stay watching tv instead of going to the club (cause ive always hated the club) so somehow i want to please him and myself by barfing and mom has found out about it so ill have to hide it, plus i hate how i look and i have the idea that losing weight ill look "good"

its so hard to deal with but yet i dont have anything serious, i could still stop

well i've had them coming and going all my life the first time i was 2 so i can't remember it but the earliest memory i have of a eating disorder was when i was 6. it was triggered off again by my mother scaring me. i'm 17 now and i had it 5 times sometimes they last a long time (2 and a half years was the longest) and other times they will only last 6 months. It has never totally gone but it has what we call "settled periods" it's always there but it doesn't affect me all the time. it's stress or truama that sets mine off but we've never discovered the root cause. i just developed a "phobia" of food over night and because i can't remember it, it is very difficult to treat. But the best thing to do is talk about it. My best friend knows everthing about me and we've been friends for 10 years now and if you explain it to someone they can support you better if they know how you are feeling and it can give you a huge sense of relief if you know your not going through it on your own.

I was overweight as a kid, went through childhood as the "fat kid" and have, and probably will always think of myself as that, one day I just decided I'd had enough and I didn't want to be fat anymore, so I just cut out pizza's (haven't had 1 in two years), stopped all my other meals, I was living off a bag of chips a day for a month or 2, after that I never really got a regular diet back, I was always afraid of getting fat again, so always watched what I ate, and never are to much, now I'm 18, 5'11'' and about 115 pounds, still afraid of getting fat.

hey.. well mine started as a diet then i just stopped eating completely. thenn i started bingeinggg and i wud get deprested and just drama around me i felt worthless and i had all these feelings. then i started throwwing up after i ate. having bulimia made me feel under control of my problem and helped with stress even tho its bad... if yu need to talk just email me =]

Try and look at your life - what is making you like this? I really couldn't say when or why I stopped eating but I was in a very unhappy place. The only reason I came out of my eating disorder was because of my partner and I am now 'bigger' but hey I'm happy! (Loz's partner Caz)

the dept of family took my Daughter with that they also took my life, friends .... I forgot to eat, or didn't want to eat on my own, I also kept saying it's a waste to cook all this food, only for one!

I have been under a lot of stress and i can't seem to put the weight back on!! I've had those powder drinks , but after a while on them I gave up. My partner makes me a dinner at night , only in the last 3 months i have been able to eat the whole plate ....

I guess it take time.

partially peer pressure, and partly very low self-esteem and depression.

It gets easier over time, and I am now able to identify triggers which can set off my low moods and patterns of ED forming.

I am now recovering to the point that my dissertation is now on ED.

i had a coach call me a heffer. but i already had bad self esteem to begin with. i think that was merely my trigger.

i wish you luck and hope you have a great support team you're working with - a great nutritionist, gp, psychologist, etc are key to recovery.

i felt fat, i could see people looking at my muffin tops, my sister helped my to start, i saw instant results, i didnt want to feel ugly anymore, i wanted to be desired by him

fat. made fun of. rejected.

I need to lose weight.

i was called fat and bullied