I think I may have an eating disorder...Idk...Please answer...?

At one point I had some problems with eating.
Everytime I got upset, I never wanted to eat. It always made me
feel guilty for some reason. (I'm 101lbs btw. and 5'7. I'm naturally like that. It's not from not eating) but one day I
realized that it was stupid, and I forced myself to eat. Felt
guilty afterwards and made myself puke.
And after that it just grew into this big eating disorder.

That was years ago, I've gotton help since then about that.
And I don't do that anymore.
But since then everytime I get upset it's hard for me to eat.
And it's starting to get worse.

Now, sometimes in the middle of eating out of nowhere I'll just start feeling like I'm gonna throw up. Like I ate too much or something.
And every little thing grosses me out when I'm eating. And it'llmake me wanna go puke.

It's very hard for me to keep my food down.

Why is that? I hate being like this!
someone please help me with this..Idk why I feel like this
evertime I eat.

I have been through this and I know how it feels to want to stop but you cant. I had problems with this for about year and it really does suck knowing you are slowly killing youself and you cant stop it. Its normal for gross things to make you puke that happens to me all the time. You have probably heard this before but the best answer i can give is to seek help. I know you may not want to but its the best thing for you.

Sounds like you have Bulimia. With this, as with ANY eating disorder, you feel terribly guilty after eating and either a.) with anorexia exercise excessively to burn it off b.) purge [throw up] with Bulimia. Sounds like you do have an ED. Bulimia to be more specific. Have you told anybody? 101 pounds is WAAAYY to skinny at your height.

eat eat eat eat and when u throw up eat some more

I can honestly say that i understand how you feel. I am 17 and am dealing with similar feelings. It may take a while, but you have to learn how to have a more positive relationship with food. Look at it this way: food is fuel for your body. Think of all the amazing things your body does every single day. Your body needs the nutrients from food. If you feel guilty when you eat, choose healthy foods like fruits, veggies, whole grains, lean protein, and low fat dairy.

I think you would benefit from talking to someone. Often times, it is too hard to keep your feelings bottled up inside. You can talk to a counselor or therapist, or even just a loved one or close friend. You don't have to fight this alone.

I wish you all the best, please take care of yourself