My therapist says i have an eating disorder but i do eat??
-i do eat just some food
-i do feel extremely guilty after eating anything
- i exercise between 2-5hrs daily
-i weight 116 and im5'9"
-i think im fat 96% of the day so much i can't focus
-i weigh my self 6 times or more daily
-i have an anxiety disorder
-i don't want to be fat
-i lost 6 pounds in 9days
-i only like to eat grains,fruits and 98% fat free turkey meat
do i have one like my therapist says?..she threaten to put me in the hospital why its not like im skinny i really am quite fat? the disorder is in how you view or feel about food. if you feel guilty for having one little treat & then do extra excewrcise to burn it off, you are in the problem.
the disorder is also in your body dismorpia (you think you are fat when statistically speaking you are thin,..............)
stop fighting & living in denial,...give yourself a chance to develop a better self image.
learn to eat to live instead of letting food & body issues rule your life! You're not fat at all. You have a warped view of yourself, and you're obsessed with weight. You need to change your thought patterns, you need to stop feeling guilty over eating, and you need to eat small, healthy meals everyday. If you must weight yourself, do it once a day, at the same time every day. For best results, after you wake up, use the bathroom, then weigh yourself. Whatever your therapist suggests, you really should follow her advice. Trust me, you have an eating disorder. Everyone thinks that if your anorexic that you never eat. Anorexics eat, just smaller amounts. Trust me I was were you are about a two years ago. Get help now. It only gets worse. Now I can exercise ten hours some days. But if you go to the hospital, make sure you want to get better. I went for about five weeks and relapsed almost immediately after getting out, because I didn't want it. Best of luck. Pretend someone else posted your question and read the details objectively, regardless of how you may see yourself. What would you say to them? I think you can answer your own question quite easily.
Listen to your therapist and feel better soon. Yes, that's an eating disorder. Having an eating disorder doesn't mean you don't eat, ever. It means you restrict your eating tightly, or over-exercise. It means you have a warped self-perception of your body. Read your list. You obviously have an ED.
116 lbs for 5'9" is underweight, btw. You may SEE YOURSELF as fat, but there is a height/weight chart in section 56, on eating disorders, at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris which may tell a different tale. On such a poor diet, you are NOT getting adequate nutrition: you NEED vegetables, legumes, and some low fat dairy products.
Avocado is the most nutritious fruit: eat one daily. By all means, eat some of what you like, but also eat what your body needs, to be healthy: ask your therapist, or a doctor, or nutritionist, or dietician. I don't like spinach, cauliflower, or silverbeet, but I eat them 5 times weekly. Broccoli, and yams (sweet potato) are "super vegetables", which I try to eat, often.
By trying to control your weight, you are trying to control your anxiety, which is ineffective. See anxiety treatments, at ezy build (below) in section 6.
Set yourself a specific time period for worrying about anything, (say; around three quarters of an hour, possibly when you get home, or after your evening meal, but not too close to bedtime) after which, resolve firmly to refuse to even entertain the thought of worrying again on that day: realise and accept that to do otherwise would be counterproductive to your mental health, and enjoyment of life.
You will have had your "worry time" for the day, and can just write down any more thoughts that come to mind, and say to yourself: "Well, I'll just have to worry about that tomorrow, won't I?". It is important to deal with a negative internal monologue (self talk), or mental process, such as disturbing thoughts, or images, by the process of (a): recognising it, and (b): challenging it immediately.
When you notice something negative, such as: "I'm never going to get over this!" or: "Why am I always so pathetic/useless/such a loser?" or even: "I can't do this/will never get over this!", or a disturbing image, recognise that this is part of the mindset which will hold you back from progressing in your recovery. Having identified and labelled it, I first visualise a large "STOP!" sign, then I say to myself as forcefully as you can, even aloud in a big voice, if alone: "I know this tactic: GO AWAY FOR A WHILE !!!" You may want to use either: "ruse", "ploy", "game", or "trick", instead of "tactic". In the case of an image, visualise a large "STOP" sign, or your preferred version. Some people go so far as to keep a wide rubber band in their pocket, then put it around their wrist, when they catch themselves backsliding, stretch and release it, as a method of reprogramming their mind sooner, but I don't regard it as being strictly necessary. Remember to remove it, afterwards, if you use this method.
Practice one of the relaxation methods in sections 2, 11, 2c, or 2i, daily, and when needed. Alternatively, give the EFT a good tryout, to see if it helps you. There is also a version for use in public places, (if you like, you can claim to have a headache, as you massage/lightly tap your temples, but you would then be restricted to subvocalising: saying it to yourself in your mind). Section 53, and pages 2, 2.q and 2.o at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris also refer: "Even though I sometimes suffer from anxiety, I deeply and completely accept myself." Neurofeedback treatment for anxiety is increasingly becoming available. Herbal remedies, such as valerian, (which is not for use if depression is also present) passionflower, St.John's wort, are often effective, but the idea is (as with anxiolytic medication) to use them like water wings, or training wheels on a bicycle, providing initial support, and giving time for other treatments, such as therapy, and relaxation techniques, to take effect.
(The following is a variant of EMDR therapy, which has been used successfully for those people suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, insomnia, and anxiety: it is easily learned, quick to use, yet can be very effective. It is easy to be dismissive of such a seemingly unusual technique, but give it a good tryout, for at least a few weeks, to see if it is effective in your case).
Prior to using either of the methods in the above paragraph, first sit comfortably, and take a deep breath. Then, without moving your head, move your eyes from the left, to the right, and back again, taking around a second to do so (say: "a thousand and one": this takes approximately a second).
Repeat this procedure (without the words, although you can count, subvocally, if you like) 20 times: "A thousand and one; a thousand and two... " and so on, to a thousand and twenty. Then close your eyes and relax. Become aware of any tension or discomfort you feel.
Then open your eyes, and take another deep breath, and repeat step one, closing your eyes, and relaxing afterwards, in the same manner. Then, repeat the procedure one last time. Some people may find that this is all they need do. With experience, you may find that you can practise this in public, with your eyes closed, which greatly widens the window of opportunity for its use, and avoids attracting unwanted attention. I have found that the 2 - 3 minutes spent using the EMDR markedly reduces distractions to the relaxation process, and is repaid many times over.
I also use it prior to my chosen relaxation technique, after lights out, at night. For more about Eye Movement Desensitisation & Reprocessing therapy, showing recommendations by those who have used it, including a professional psychotherapist with more than 20 years of experience in that field, see sections 33 - 34, at ezy-build. She was skeptical, at first, and I remained unconvinced, until trying it, and now I use it twice daily, including after lights out, at night.
Weigh yourself far less frequently: once weekly is reasonable, and maintain your weight between the lower, and upper healthy limits. If you eat healthily, as well, your therapist will have no reason to threaten enforced treatment. She may well have seen the results of other cases, where people weren't treated, in time to save them from severe bodily harm, or death, which occurs far more often than you may think: ask her. |
