Eating Disorder?

I think I have an eating disorder...again. I use to be anorexic before I got pregnant with my daughter. I used ephedera diet pills, I rarely ate, and when I did I'd take laxatives to get it out of my system asap, and I'd spit out food. When I got pregnant I let go and ate what I wanted. After I had her I lost most of the pregnancy weight and started getting too skinny again, so I tried gaining a few pounds by adding a few calories everyday. But now I'm eating like crazy, in secret and in large amounts, and I'm taking the diet pills and laxatives again to try to counter act my binges, but it's not really working this time. I'm wondering if anyone's gone through similar situations at all, and could offer some good advice. I use to be so disciplined with my diet and exercise life style now I feel I'm out of control. I can go maybe a few days eating right and exercising, but most days I'm stuffing my face with food and pills. :(

You need to go and get some specialist help, you have admitted that you have a problem , so you are on the right track, but all these pills will harm your body because you not taking in all the proper nutrients and vitamins your body needs, which will be doing long term damage. For the sake of your daughter go and get help before you make yourself really sick.

Sweetheart, you don't need advice from here - you need professional advice - go and see your family doctor for an appropriate referral.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH U MESSED UP PARENTS??!! Why do u guys have children when u can't even take care of yourselves??! Your child is going to grow up messed up because of you! Yea, what I'm saying is mean, but it's true.

To get over ur eating disorder, think about ur f*ing child. Do u wanter him/her to grow up with a sick mom or have you die on her? Do u want her to grow up with the same problem as you? Talk to your doctor. Stop binging. Eat regularly. What's wrong with having a normal weight? Jeezus u guys have too much time on ur hands that u can worry about stuff like that. Focus on ur daughter, read some books, volunteer often, work, etc. Don't just think about ur weight all the time. Keep your mind busy.

I hope ur daughter/son will turn out ok.
Seeing too many messed up parents with messed up children
yes you have a disorder you need to go back for help. or get help to start with. if you never went and got help b4 then this could just be the same as b4 just now it's added more.
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Frans
You are bullimic. Throwing up does not cause weight loss, because your body still absorbs calories. You need proffesional help, if not for your sake, but for your daughters. You do not want her growing up with a bullimic mother. Childrens who's parents have eating disorders are more likely to end up with them , themselves. If you can not bring your self to tell a proffesional, at least tell your husband! I am glad you have realized you have a problem, that makes it easier

good luck, and I will pray for you