How can I get over my eating disorder?

I have been anorexic/bulimic for the past 2 years and have been hospitalized 3 times. I've has a heart attack and numberous other problems. I don't weigh much but I really feel huge. I am in therapy now but it's not helping. I want to get help and I have tried but I can't stop. It literally runs my life. Does anyone know how to get over this? Has anyone done anything particularly helpful?

I had an eating disorder for many years. I never threw up but I was a compulsive exerciser and I would fast, too. I was always thinking about food. It was hell. I wanted to feel good but if I somehow did something that made me feel good I had to sabotage it. Like once I went to a yoga class and I felt so good I could hardly stand it. Also when I practiced tai chi.
So what I'm saying is that over time, I taught myself to tolerate feeling good. Which is what all of us want--to feel good. But we don't let ourselves.

I also noticed that I envied my brother, who could get so absorbed in playing the guitar that he would forget to eat. Well it was clear he didn't have the same obsessions as I did because he had this creative thing he did that absorbed him and engaged him.

I searched for that thing--what would it be for me-- that got me interested in life and helped me find my healthy self, the self that wants to and can make a difference and help others. It's not over; it's still a journey and I still have doubts and I'm still in therapy. But I have grown and had progress in my life.

I hope you find it too.

Don't stick your finger down your throat when your done eating that might help a little
I tried doing something that'll keep my mind off my body or how I look. I used to have a slight case of anorexia, but I've realized that once I had stuff to do, that kept me off my mind about how I thought I was fat. Eventually it just slipped back to normal as I realized that I wasn't fat and I realized that I COULD DIE FROM ANORIEXIA/BULIMIA.
Read what you wrote and see that you know that you don't weigh much but you feel huge. Sweetie you know you're down a path of destruction. How will it make your loved ones feel if you pass away. Talk more in therapy, maybe it's an issue that you haven't discovered yet and this could be the root to the problem. Therapy will help you baby
I think you already know what you need to do, see your doctor and have them refer you to a good clinic. Spend some time with people who have the same problem and learn from their experiences. Make a commitment to yourself that you want to and will get better. And good luck, I wish you success with this one.
Since your body is constantly changing, where is there any foundation to rest, on which you can say that is who you really are?
who are you?