Does this sound like the start of an eating disorder?

Please don't tell me I need to get help. I am having a hard time keeping myself together. I feel useless to guys. My parents hate me. I can't cheer anymore. I'm a wreck. My little cousin also called me "tiny fat". I feel like I am losing it. I've thrown up once already and I am on the scale all the time. I pinch my fat and I can't stand what I see in the mirror. I'm getting fatter by the second. I am starting to eat less but then I had tacos and pizza today, I felt like dying. So tommorow my fat @$$ is not going to eat at all. I promise. I want to be skinny, I want everyone to notice my thinness. I want to be 40 lbs. less by the start of the new school year. I want to fit in amazing clothes. I want guys to think I'm hott. What's wrong with me..

OK, don't panic. its not that difficult to lose weight considering all the ways you can. exercise more, watch your food portions. weight watchers is good and so is south beach diet. these are the beginning signs of an eating disorder. if you want to be skinny, then do as i said above. trust me, i want to be the same way, but by personal experience, throwing up and not eating at all doesn't resolve anything. it makes you very unhealthy and unable to do many things. also, try things that will boost self esteem. go shopping and DON'T WORRY ABOUT THE SIZE! just find clothes that fits beautifully and I'm sure guys will notice you. I'm a bit chubby myself but i present myself very well, and i get guys. they don't want extremely skinny girls. they want some meat.

i hope this helps

good luck and I'm sure you will be perfectly fine by the beginning of the new school year

=]

Yes... this does sound like you have an eating disorder. Since you don't want to hear that you need to get help... I won't say it..but I think you know it.
sadly yes. instead of not eating, eat healthy things like salad, or grilled chicken instead of fried. get an hour of excercise everyday. dont over eat or undereat. eat until your full and only when your hungry. eats sweets in moderation. EX: instead of 4 oreos, 2 & a glass of milk (milk is healthy). dont not eat, ive seen people who do that, and they dont look healthy. eat healthy and excercise as much as you can and the wight should come off. try joining the ymca or your local gym and go there 1 a day or when you get time. stay strong! besides its on the inside dat matters! =)

~peace~
It's a good thing that you are begining to recognize it, but you really need to take the next steps. Talk to a close friend and ask he or she what she thinks. 40 lbs? I think you should go online and look up what the normal weight is for your age and determine if you are over, underweight or just right. Throwing up and not eating may make you loose weight but it comes back just as fast. It slows down your metabolism, which decreases your digestive track so when you eat the food stays there. DO NOT vomit and DO NOT stop eating. Trust me my mom's works for NIH (National Institutes of Health) and she's a health freak so I grew up knowing this stuff. Hell, I want to be skinny too but I'm trying to exercise and make better food choices. It's hard to keep up with but I try. Do talk to someone close to you about it though and I hope this helps! Good luck!
mommy
It sure does sound like the star of an eating disorder. I guess we're on the same plank then. Welcome to the club. I'm not going to give you any f****d up advices since I'm in no position to give you one. It's good enough that you at least know what you're going thru. Good luck, though.