Help with schizophrenia???

i suffered from melancholia since ten, i rarely showed emotions, and couldn't feel some emotions
i suffer from depression now, and yes, i did attempt comiting suicide a couple of times....
i have various mental disorders like mysophobia (fear of bacteria and dirtiness), and asexuality (opposite of bi), etc
you can tell my brain is f---ed up
but i think i have another mental illness, that i'm not sure of
i see shadows sometimes, and later find out that there were no such shadows (illusions?)
sometimes i hear random voices, (never the same), talking, screaming, whispering, spazzing, laughing, crying etc...but find out they weren't real (Hallucinations?)/ sometimes i feel something or someone's next to me but there's no one....
i think these are symtoms of schizophrenia (according to wiki)
the problem is that i'm in high school...and never was able to cure my mental sh-t because my parents don't trust me and think i'm a spoiled bit CH...i never told this to my friends and teachers

i tried to stop myself from sh-t but can't and i can't get help from people (whom i know)
my parents will go crazy if they find out i secretly visited a doctor or something...

by the way,,, i'm not a loner or loser who talks to herself and stays by herself....i don't know what the cause of my schizophrenia was....

i'm seriously losing my mind....i need help....

are there any online counslings or online doctors or stuff like that?

I suggest you speak with someone about your. I had mild schizophrenia and the longer I didn't tell people about it the worse it got. I finally did tell my parents that I wasn't "normal" and they helped me. Maybe this would be different for you but I think you can go to maybe a school counselor or something. Even a close friend.

I can't give you any answers for this, But I can tell you that you aren't alone, I haven't heard of anybody else seeing shadows and just though I was wierd, I don't hear voices just a radio now and then, if you want email me we could talk more

You see shadows, hear and sense things near you? Are you sure your home isnt haunted? I use to see something similar things like shadows... and hear wisphers. But I know I wasnt crazy!! Maybe its not all in your head. Does this occur in public places too?











WELL OK. IF SAY THEY DONT EXIST THEN YOU ARE PROBABLY EFFIN CRAZY. WHATEVER! I KNOW THEY EXIST! BECAUSE I HAVE SEEN AND SO HAVE OTHERS.

I sure don't want to steer you in the wrong direction..but I just have to say something! You really might have schizophrenia..it's not just about hearing voices etc. It's about many other things.So a good dr. shouldn't diagnose you as schizophrenic based just on that..so don't diagnose yourself either because of it.
Now I'm going to say something that I kinda hesitate to say..but I just have to. The things you say you experience..shadows ..voices ..feelings etc..are the things we talk about on the Paranormal Section at Science&Math/Alternative/Paranormal. I don't know how old you are..if you're even allowed on that section. But these same experiences happen to a lot of people on that section. I don't want to scare you..but I also don't want you to think that it's a mental illness. You've got enough of them to cope with. If you're old enough...please go to our section and read the Resolved Questions. Keep reading till you find experiences that are the same as yours. (We can't ALL be schizophrenic on that section! lol)There are spirits/ghosts called "shadow people". I'll see if I can find a link about it. Hope I've helped and haven't scared you or made it worse. If you're going to a dr...he might..or might not..believe in the paranormal. Guess the only way to know is to tell him and see what he says. You don't HAVE to take medication if you don't believe it's caused by mental illness. But if it is..then medication will help. If you're parents won't help you get help..that's child neglect. They need to be made aware of that.
Here's the link:http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shadow_peop...