Paranoia ? self conconcious ? schizophrenia ? i donno!?

i think im extremely paranoid.
i can't go outside my door without make up perfectly done.
i can't look a person in the eyes without my make up done.
if i spend hours on my make up i feel extremely confident.
ive a fear of people seein me witthout it on.
i have dreams that im in bed with my make up a mess and my hair all messy but im in a public area like a college canteen or at a bar, and im hiding under the covers praying no one will see me.
i sometimes cant string a sentence together cause i get so nervous and get all muddled up and sometimes cant even finish a sentence. yet when im drunk i talk away.
im not extremely self concious, im a lil confident but only with my make up on !!!!
some people say i look the same without make up but i feel one inch high. i feel amazing in full make up, its my little mask. if i cant perfect my make up before a night out ill actually cry and vow not to go out. i think im insane haha!

Being very anxious about your appearance, to the extent of feeling insecure without full makeup, is not a sign of any sort of mental disorder. It's not schizophrenia, psychosis, or anything of that sort.

What it is is a symptom of poor self-image and self-confidence. Given that you're relatively young and female, it's not a surprising thing. You, like most women in your age range, have noticed that women are often evaluated almost entirely on their ability to be visually appealing. It's an unfortunate byproduct of industrialized culture. To get past it, you need to work on two things. One, try to move away from that sort of self-evaluation; wear less makeup, pay less attention to other's makeup, etc. Two, try to develop other areas of self-worth. There's got to be something about you more interesting and valuable to you and others than your makeup. Figure out what it is, and work on it. Practice sharing your interests with others, without wearing makeup. If after trying some you find this to be impossible, you should set up an appointmetn with a local counselor.

idk what happened, but there is some corrolation with you makeup and safety. i dare you to go to the supermarket in sweats with no make up. ull feel like crap the first time, but keep it up. make a vow to not wear makeup every time you go the the supermarket. ull get use to it

not parinoia. if you were Paranoid, you would be afraid that something bad is going to happen all the time. You probaly have low self-esteem.