My bro is a schizophereniac he and dad do substance abuse too! both of them shout andsay swear words to me and?

mom too! my bro also hits my mom. puts the tv on full volume v live i a flat and everyone complains he says he will not go to dad's place. (my dad lives in his house in village and we live in a rented apartment in a town you see) just the other day, i closed my room to study becuz there was a lot of noise on tv he came in the room through the window and shouted on me. i feel so bad. i am in 9th class, i feel like ok-some more years and then it will be my life where i will become a pilot and lead my own life but then i think about my mum. she says that she can never leave dad and bro. it was my mom's love marriage aginst the wishes of my maternal granny. i feel so lonely. my bro. has been to jail 2 times the second time for 9 months. the worst fact is that my mom fought against the wishes of everyone to come to my granny's house and i am not so good at studies. i can't concentrate. i feel lonely.
so what to do??
how can i stop my self from counting the bad facts of life??????
pleeeez help

also, there is a gue who is 15 and lives near my house
he said i love you to me i did not get angry wid him but told him -no. but the word spread and everyone got to know about it. in india it is not that u can have a boyfrnd so i said that i will never want to see his face. from there, he is not coming in front of me and my other frnd is on his side and he is angry and doesnot respond to my helo and hi. now i realise that i liked him too!!
what to do??
he is alwayz in a public place that i can't talk to him. if i talk or even to him at a public place the rumours will be considered corrct.
help!!!!!!

Do not talk with that boy.
-First make a list of his good hobbies ,helping nature and similarly bad qualities
-list your hobbies, good bad qualities
-Then ,if they match, you should continue
-You can start a business along with your father and brother ,some business need no investment ,example honey business
-If you do not get concentration for study ,use Ayurvedic house hold herbs to improve concentration, start religious activities in your house ,this will improve your brother and father
-You can use ear plug of cotton to noise of television problem
-You can tell your brother to write e mails to me, through this section and you can write to me your problems

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IwBA4rjKZ...

If u want to be really ecstatic,u must ignore others.Just keep going :-) Of course all of us wants to be loved by someone.Anyways give first preference 2 ur studies and then comes other matters.All the best.Keep smiling...take care :-)

schizophrenia is a very serious mental disease please ask your parents to start his treatment immediately

First things first. Because you are faced with so many problems at once, you are trying to find solace in a boy who is growing up and is under the influence of budding hormones. Darling, you have some issues to tackle so don't get caught up in hormone rush. He does not love you. Nor do you. No one can fall in love in the age of 15 (except in movies). It is only lust. First you right track your life and then think about love and everything.
Now the bottom of it. Persuade your mom to seek treatment for your bro if he is really sick. Otherwise persuade her to get you admitted in a boarding school.

THE FOLLOWING IS PERHAPS WHAT U ARE FEELNG; AND THE STATE OF YOUR MIND;

seeing my relatives present before me in such a spirit,

I feel now unable to stand here any longer. I am forgetting myself, and my mind is reeling. I foresee only evil,

the eternal family tradition is vanquished, and thus the rest of the family becomes involved in irreligious practice.

Due to the evil deeds of the destroyers of family tradition, all kinds of family welfare activities are devastated.

those who destroy family traditions dwell always in hell.

we are committing greatly sinful acts, driven by the desire to enjoy royal happiness.

Now I am confused about my duty and have lost all composure because of weakness. In this condition I want to know with clarity what is best for me.

I can find no means to drive away this grief which is drying up my senses. I will not be able to destroy it even if I win equivelent of a kingdom with sovereignty like the gods in heaven.

THEN PLEASE VISIT
www.bslnd.org

THERE IS NO OTHER WAY OUT;

YOUR LIFE IS NOT ONLY DESTROYED BUT IS GRADUALLY AND SLOWLY TAKING YOUR SELF ON THE PATH OF SIN; BORN OUT OF EVILS OF BIRTH, DEATH, OLD AGE AND ILLNESSESS OF THE BODY, MIND, AND INTELLECT OF PEOPLE IN YOUR HOME AND AROUND YOU; WHICH IT SHALL SURELY DO; BUT TAKE CARE AS TO NOT DESTROY YOUR SELF.

reading all - you already have lot complications, dont try to increase your problems.
it's your life and you should own your life.

how?

focus on your study - join a library where you can get the environmemt where you can study and do something in life.

in vacations - do a summer job, this will help in dealing with difficult situations and earn some money.